This is a short story that I have written was inspired by the song Sitting Wishing Waiting by Jack Johnson. The reason I chose this song to base a story on was because a few years back, my friends and I did a quiz titled “What’s the song for your life?” and Jack Johnson’s Sitting Wishing Waiting was apparently the song that explained my life at that time.
All her life – no matter how many of her friends were Christians – she never put her faith in God. Neither does she follow the horoscopes that her best friend puts her life on. She just believed in…hard work and perseverance. And she thought that as long as she continued to love him, he would eventually come to love her too. She showed him her perseverance by doing all she could for him. Three years into high school, she’s been acquainted with his friends who, every time they met, would tease her for reading books, laugh about her style and her seriousness to study. At moments she thought, “Why must I put up with this!? This is so infuriating!” and scream and yell at the top of her lungs in her room. After feeling calmer than a moment ago, she takes a deep breath – inhales and exhales – and says to herself, “Forget it. It’s going to be worth it in the end!” She’s written all the essays he had to do – whether for English or Law about the topic of “Should marijuana be legalized” – she did them all foolishly and she probably would do the same in her last year of high school too.
In her final year of high school, she prayed once and her prayer went something like this, “Dear God, if you’re really there and really do exist…please make him fall in love with me. I’ve never been a fan of religion but, just this once, please help me. Help me Lord.”
It’s finally graduation day. You see graduates hugging each other and wishing each other the best in university. Among them, she’s there. She’s hugging her parents and thanking them for coming when suddenly she feels someone pat her on her left shoulder. She turns and all her close friends greet her. “Let’s go!” one of them says. Another says, “Yeah! My mom’s ready to drive us to my place and we’re gonna do our own celebrating.” And gives her a wink. As she was about to say anything back, someone calls her from behind. She knows this voice – all too well – and as if my instinct, turns around. She shows the brightest smile to him and forgetting her friends, runs towards him. “She’s still in love with him?” One of her friends asks. Her best friend, before answering, gives out a sigh and says, “Yeah.” She then yells out to her foolish friend saying, “We’ll wait for you outside!” She turns and yells back with an okay.
“Congrats on graduating!” she says to him. He chuckles a bit, smiles at her and gently says, “You too.” They both give each other a friendly hug and then she asks, “So any plans with your friends after that?” He thinks for a second and says no. He then begins with, “So…listen. There’s this girl I want to tell my feelings to…and I know you’re acquainted with her so can you-” She cuts him off. Her glowing smile disappears and her brows frown a bit. Not getting the hint, he begs a bit more.
“Please! Just this once!” he told her. And as coldly as she could she replied with a no. “Fine. Last time! I’ll never ask you to do anything for me again. Whatever you want, I’ll buy it for you okay? So ju-” She cut him off again and asked, “How long must I wait for you?” She looked him in the eyes and saw his pleading eyes turn stern out of irritation. Now there’s only silence between them. He’s trying to find the right words to say while she’s deciding whether she should say anything or not. Her anxiety and the need to want to break the silence fast overrules her and she speaks. “You know I’ve always don-” She stops. And her face shows an “Oh shit. What the hell was I gonna say?” look. She’s having second thoughts now. She thinks for a moment. If she tells him what she’s felt all these years now…then that’d be the end of them. Although she’s scared, she makes a choice. She reminds herself, “If I don’t tell him now, I won’t ever get another chance. Just go for it!” and she speaks again.
“You know I’ve always done everything you wanted. Even when I was exhausted from my own studies, I’d never say no to whatever help you wanted from me. In a way, it made me feel that you need me and it gave me hope that eventually you’ll come to love me too. So I guess I was wrong.” She forces a smile at him but all he could see was the look that she was about to cry. She continues, “You know that I like you right? All these years I’ve known you?” He nods. “And you want me to help you to confess to the girl you love? Do you think I’m a fool that I’d agree to something like that!?” She notices that she was beginning to raise her voice. Calmly she asks him, “For how long?” He hesitates a bit but replies, “Uhh…since year one.” Year one…the same time she fell in love with him. Her tears begin to roll down her face and he looks at her with apologetic eyes. When she realizes this, she covers her eyes with the back of her hand and stutters, “You’re cruel…you should’ve told me from the start that you’d never love me but you kept raising my hopes.” She’s crying now but she wipes the tears away with both her hands and looks at him with her red eyes. Before she says goodbye to him and runs off, she tells him, “I’m not gonna be the fool that’s gonna keep waiting for you anymore.”